Greetings readers… if there are any left 🙂
It has been quite some time but I have returned. Finally.
I have been having a very difficult time being motivated since the day of the marathon. That was a tough day. I am very glad that I was able to do something so difficult. As troublesome as the distance was, the mind game before, during and after the race hurt me more than any physical pain. First a recap of the race. It was, in fact, a full 42.2 km. A number that didn’t seem so bad until I crossed the half way point that day. I did so in pretty good time (under two hours) and was feeling a bit tight but all-in-all, pretty good about things. The next kilometer would see to that. By the time I crossed 23 km, my IT band had tightened right up and I was forced from a run to a slow hobble. I stopped and stretched a number of times, however, the time between running and hobbling quickly evaporated and I found myself shuffling the kilometers away. I am not a quitter. On that day, I really wished I would throw in the towel and get a ride back. There is no shame in that. I am also stubborn. The last 19 km were tough on my body and on my mind and I think, on that day, I hurt both pretty bad.
I finished the race with a time of 4:43: 39. It was 43:39 slower than my target time. Was I disappointed? Then, yes. Now, not so much. I finished and I know what it took to get there. It was a victory for me, and a hard fought one at that.
Since that day, I have not run much. I had put in a few runs before the holidays and a few since, but nothing with any regular schedule. I have been feeling alright about that. I have signed up for the Mississauga Half Marathon this spring. As I write this, the race is in 80 days. I am not overly worried about making it to race day. I know that I can make the distance and am hoping to best my PR.
This is not what has motivated me.
Because I have had limited running (and any exercise in general), I have felt myself slipping back into pre-running shape.
I know that I can and will do better but this is not what has motivated me.
I took a good long look at things on a recent car trip. I have felt beaten down lately. Things haven’t felt like they are going right. A few missed opportunities, some rejection, family health issues and an overall feeling of malaise. This is what is stifling me. It has been easy to say that life is doing this to me. Be passive. Accept it. And it has been easy. I have realized that this is just part of the cycle. Part of what makes it difficult to break free. I need to be back in control. I need to get out of this rut and I need it now.
This is what has motivated me.
My first step has been to share. One of the things I read about getting out of a slump is to define a goal. Check. Find inspiration. Check. Commit Publicly. Check.
I look forward to sharing more as the days go by. Sharing my runs, thoughts and things that help me keep motivated.
Thank you.
PS – I wrote a short article for iRun.ca about why my run club is the best. Wanna read it?




